12/25/21 - Christmas Kimchi Noodles

 

12/25/21 - Christmas Kimchi Noodles



Currently at 10:59pm on Xmas, I'm enjoying this dressed up bowl of kimchi noodles. I've had a video uploading to Youtube practically all day! I'm sure everyone's been attempting to do the same thing (getting a Youtube video up on Christmas), and this is why it's been 56% uploaded since about 2pm! So I've noticed that all day today I've been reminiscing on how MUCH my life has changed over the past year. Ultimately for the better but the most painstaking part is my mother isn't here in physical form able to celebrate with me. I've built so much for myself in the span of a year, and I'm just in awe. I'm so unquestionably proud of myself for being able to pick myself up off the floor after the loss of my mother, and honing in on surviving/hustling. Of course not forgetting to take the necessary time to slow down, bask it all in, take time for myself and grieve when I need to. By doing so I find myself talking and praying to her as much as I can, and communicating to her that I WOULD NOT be the powerful warrioress I am today if it weren't for her. She's the reason I'm so goal driven, and head strong. She's the reason I have a very blunt and outright edge to me. The flame I won't let anyone blow out, the courage that can't be taken away from me. I'm so SO thankful she's bestowed that gift upon me. Christmas is quite difficult for me, for two reasons. One - this is the second one without her, and her passing followed four days after. Two - She was always the life of the party, she brought everyone together so effortlessly. Her jolly laugh enveloped the room, it was so contagious! So I'm sure you can imagine the drastic change going from a family gathering full of fun, to me ....eating kimchi noodles on Xmas, while most of my family is working and off doing their own thing. However, times like these REALLY make you appreciate the memories you carry that will never go away! No one can take them from you, they're silently stashed away in your subconscious! So if you're alone on a holiday or in general, PLEASE - take it from YOURS TRULY - Miss Naudia Exotica... Remember this one thing. Just because you may be alone, DOES NOT mean you have to be lonely!!! Being ALONE and being LONELY are two very SEPARATE things! 

The One, The Only
Naudia Exotica